AGAINNN

redraw of this -> [link]

some way too long baww for those with a second:

I have not been feeling well lately. I feel like I am in a rut, only it's taken me three years to realize I've been there/still am there. I am practically 23 and have nothing to show for it. my job is dead-end and twenty cents away from minimum wage, my education consists of less than two years of crap community college directed at no specific major, and I still have no concept of what I want my future to look like.

I remind myself I have a lot of things that other people would kill to have and that I am very fortunate. I also remind myself that everything I have or do not have is directly consequential of my own actions and decisions and that I do not have a right to go around and bawww to people about 'augh my life is the worst I am so DEPRESSED AUUUHHHHGH.' I am not a victim of circumstance or a victim at all.

I do not know where to start to make it better. but sometimes when I am doodling aimless comics or random crap or cutesy porn or anything at all, I feel better. drawing all freaking day everyday instead of focusing on myself is probably extremely counter-productive to accomplishing lifestyle changes, but ahhh. I feel so much better when I am drawing. I must work on balancing the two. hopefully 2013 will be my year for that. maybe actually make that shitty portfolio I've been talking about making for the past three fucking years and do something with all this time I have ahahaha

I am ranting this to you because it is what I was thinking when I was drawing this, and I found it slightly hilarious that I had these super sobering emokid thoughts while redrawing some borderline porno from when I was fifteen! <8D;; I am not fishing for asspats or passats or whatever those pity-bits are! I guess I just thought I'd share ahahah

I dunno. sorry for bein' ONE OF THOSE AHHHH. all of this aside, I hope you all have a great year<33 thank you so much for alla the support these years! NOW GET OUT THERE AND ACCOMPLISH SOME SHIT THIS YEAR YEAH! 8D LOVE YOU GUYSSSS

also they're like, 17ish in here. not gonna lie. so if this disappears, you know what happened 83;;